This week

This has been a crazy week aside from turning 37 which has been as stirring for some unknown reason as turning 30 was.(Perhaps because for men 37 is truly middle age) Natalie had surgery on her throat and ears and during the surgery Teresa and I waited for her alone and together for the first time in probably 2 or 3 years since Natalie's last ear surgery (tubes). This was the first time we have seen each other period in eight years now that there was open hostility pouring out of her. We really were able to be civil to one another and for one brief moment as Natalie got dressed and we both helped her it actually felt like we were a family again. A few moments later I found myself in my car bawling like a baby and feeling such loss that it was almost unbearable. How could things have gone so wrong.