Miracle Baby!

What we all need to hear!

Explanation and Apology

I know I haven't been posting much on the story guys, but I just have a feeling my ex wife is up to something. She is on here quite a bit and for long periods of time. She is also being friendly when we do speak and that always means trouble.

This is a Miracle!

This little girl who is 10 years old was on America's Got Talent last night and just blew me away!! Her GIFT is a miracle of God! Here is a sample of the miracle of ten year old Jackie Evancho!

Another Miracle!!

If you are a faithful reader of the blogs you know they were born out of a miracle of God healing me of a depression I had faced since my separation. Now that is true and it is still evident in me today, however a couple of years ago I went back to court to try and get Natalie to be able to live here. I truly believed that God was working and for a while it seemed as though it was going to happen. Months before this Natalie and I was driving to Liberty, Ky. and out of the blue and for no apparent reason I felt God spoke to me and said "your daughter is coming home soon." I had to pull over and I just bawled. So I really believed it was finally going to happen. So when it didn't I became extremely angry with God although I would never come right out and say it. So when my Pastor did something I didn't agree with I left the church even though it was growing quickly and people were being saved and I was the Worship Leader. I kind of did it I guess to get back at God. I was so depressed I gained 20 pounds to reach my highest weight ever of 320 and I could no longer function at my job, and I had a very very good job selling Life Insurance. had I stayed I would be making 75 to 100 thousand dollars a year right now and in another 10 years probably 200 to 250 thousand a year. It was a dream job as I even made out my own schedule and it was an excellent Christian environment and they were really good to me there. But after I lost Natalie again I just couldn't go on. Now this added to the depression I already had by leaps and bounds and that was what the Lord healed me of in December of last year. I was still however extremely upset or mad at God and have been ever since then. I have stayed out of church and began to be selfish and self centered as well as somewhat vain. Saturday though much like in December just out of the blue God healed me of that pain as well. I saw something in a movie that touched me I can't remember what it was but I began to cry and cry and just repeatedly (which was unnecessary) ask for forgiveness. God did just that! He restored my soul and spirit, my zeal, my fervor and my love for him and I am so thankful!! God knows best and he will withhold no good thing from me or Natalie!

Bad Dad explanation

Natalie has been fascinated by cell phones since she was 3 and I know this. Since she was 7 she has been asking for cell phone. Now while she was here for the summer she let me know that several of her friends had them including this one little nasty girl who thinks she is queen bee of the school. So I promised Natalie she would have a cell phone by the time school started. Now to get a phone that had unlimited minutes and text and web I made it contingent on her mother agreeing that I could talk to her everyday. (Right now I can only call on Tuesdays and Friday per court order) Now that was obviously for selfish reasons on my part. Well of course Teresa refused and so not only did I just give Natalie a phone for emergencies she can barrely use but then I go out and et me a cool new phone so as to rub it in he face. Needless to say I have seen how awful I have been and will give natalie te new phone when she comes back home. Love is never selfish and that is exactly what I was being. I have asked Natty to forgive me and she has now if I can only forgive myself.

From that to this!

Remember this?

Big Personal change coming!!

On August 16th I am going back to school to finish my teaching degree. I am extremely nervous! Please pray for me!!!

I have been a bad dad!

I recently handled a situation with Natalie all wrong!! I have to make this right!! I will too as soon as I can speak to her again on Friday!! I will explain everything then.

Don't forget

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Also Everyone should be aware that due to Google Analytics I can see who has been on the site and for how long and what pages they viewed and how long they were on each individual page so I know when something is up!

Something's up

I taked with Teresa Friday afternoon for a couple of minutes to give her my new phone numbers and she was nice!! I have known her long enough to know when she's pleasant she is up to something! Probably getting ready to take me to court over the blogs!!