Oh Brother!!!

Yesterday Natalie had a Doctor's visit with her regular doctor because of a wart she had on her foot I learned two interesting things first of all she hadn't seen her primary Doctor in 3 years!!! If the shot questions come up you can be sure that will be mentioned!!! If her problems hasn't took her to the doctor in three years how on earth could they be that serious as to require 3 shots a week!! But anyway that isn't the most important thing, no not at all Teresa has of course been bad mouthing me to Natalie something she does quite frequently even though we are not supposed to do that!! Nat just listens and goes on she knows bull when she hears it but can't say anything for fear she will get in trouble. (poor kid in that environment) Anyway Teresa told Nat that I was running her down to the dogs in this blog. Now while I do not deny that this blog will tell my side of things and how I think Teresa is wrong on some things. My intentions are not to run her down in any way only to express the struggles, aggravation and trouble I have experienced in my life with the focus being on the marriage and divorce. It is a way for me to simply get things off my chest. Things I need to especially since Teresa is unwilling to talk to me. Most of the blog to this point hasn't even been about Teresa, but about my childhood and my relationship with my parents and until recently what had been about her had been about how much I loved her (and always will real love does not go away she is after all the mother of my child and even though she makes me upset I will always love her and if she ever needs anything if I have it she has it). Now two more points nothing I have said or will say will be false in anyway and if Teresa doesn't leave Natty alone and quit fussing at her over something she has no control over anyway then I will tell some things I left out for ol' Teresa's sakes like the Lake Cumberland Resort deal with the rented car and what took place at her parent's home when they were away!!!

Trouble in Paradise!!!

It wasn't but just a few hours into the marriage when I knew in my heart she had no real respect for me when she would completely disregard any requests I made!! Let me tell you people something that are yet to be married the lines are drawn within the first 72 hours of marriage of how things are to play out in the marriage. For example whose going to be the one to make the compromises in situations is exactly the sort of thing I am talking about. Now I know what I am getting ready to say is about something small, but most often it is the small wounds that hurt the most as they are a sign of a much larger problem! Now Teresa worked at the electric company and no joke she saw it as her duty to use as much as electric as possible to support her company. Which would be fine if she worked for a store or something, but you can't boost the electric companies profits single handed!!! But she tried believe me she tried!!! Now, I was extremely nervous and desperately wanted to be a good provider. I had no idea what our expenses would really run as I had always lived at home, and to say I was scared would be an understatement of major proportions. You must also understand I had thought myself invincible financially and then had just recently went through a bankruptcy which was why I was as concerned as I was. So I would ask Teresa several times to please turn off the light if she was leaving the room and was going to be out of there for a while. She would just give me a smile and then completely ignore me!!!! Now I know this doesn't sound like much but to me it was!! I never said a word about it which in hindsight I should have I guess, but I didn't want to start a fight, instead I just let it fester and got more and more upset and hurt over it. Another thing that really hurt my feelings right off the bat was how Teresa would tell me not to touch her computer like I was so stupid I would destroy it by my DNA!!! I admit I was ignorant at the time of computers, but the way she said don't touch it made me feel like she loved it more than she loved me!! By far though the biggest mistake we made right off the bat was.........

Natty and Daddy like you have never seen us before!!

Something I want to share!

O.K. let's fast forward the story here to 2004. I am going to share a little information with you that I wanted to wait till it actually occurs in the story, but for the sake of this story which I am hoping Teresa will read I have decided to share it now. While the divorce was going on I worked at Oakwood which is a large (then state run) facility for people with Mental Retardation). One day some co-workers had to take someone to the local emeergency room. While there they came across Teresa's mother. Due to them having a resident with them she asked if they were from Oakwood. When they said yes she asked if they knew me, when they again said yes she told these people who were complete stranges to her that I had left her daughter because she was ill. Well a few days later it was Superbowl Sunday and I had prepared a big party for the people in the home I worked in and invited other homes as well. The party had been going for about an hour and I was on my third round of getting refills on pop, pizza, and snacks when one of the other staff motioned me over and said something to me that made me almost pass out!! He said with a smirky attitude " You look like someone who would leave someone because they're sick!" I know I made a face at first then said huh? He said "I have been watching you for an hour now waiting on these people hand and foot youhaven't asked for help, or had a bite yourself and you are doing this for strangers, you look like you would leave your wife cause you didn't want to take care of her." Then a quick smile broke out over his face and he said that' what your mother in law told me at the hospital the other day. Of course then I understood. He then said I didn't know much about you then so I kept quiet he said but if I ever see her again I'll be sure to tell her SHE'S A LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The cat is out of the bag!!

Well, it had to happen!! While Natalie was here for the summer she got on my Facebook page (Add me as a friend, Steven Dowell). Anyway Natalie was very upset because Teresa had not called her but at that time once (she called her twice in 5 weeks!) So Natalie sent her a message on Facebook. Well Teresa came back to my Facebook page and saw the links for the blogs. Saturday Nat had to go to after hours because she has a wart on her foot. So Natty told me about this and said she is mad. Well GOOD! Maybe she will learn some things she should know. Teresa if you read this do yourself and Nat a favor read the entire thing. Then you will know that I loved you, I will always love you (even when I can't stand you). And that you are making some huge mistakes in your life. The more you try to keep Natty and me apart the more you will bring us closer together.

I also just want to say this being hateful towards me is useless! It is also extremely petty and immature. And ignoring me altogether when we are in front of Nat also extremely juvenile!! You should also know that telling Natalie I am a sinner because I wear shorts is crazy, Uh hello hatred and bitterness and unforgiveness these are all things that WILL keep you out of Heaven. Also quit lying to the kid and telling her I just left you. No one that knows me believes that and Natty knows me!!